To My Dearest Mom...

I know you don't know what is blog, I know you don't even read blog, I know you don't understand English. All these years what I feel about you I just keep in my heart, but since I started write blogs, I just want to express my thought and feeling here to you.

You were born in a poor family, you sacrifice your education in early age for few types of work just to support the family, if this situation turns to me, I don't think I can do it. Until now you still working part time as tailor just to support the family. I really shame on myself, you are already in retirement age, why you still work so hard for us?

Although you're not complete your education, but the knowledge you have is really far better than many people who got higher education. Your most valuable knowledge you got is to educate me how to be a good human. I'll always remember it for my entire life.

I don't blame you are not rich, to me you are the riches woman in world to show how much is your love to your sons. You never give up to care of us no matter how bad we did in the past or present. I know you always said you gave up, but I can feel your heart is never give up.

I remember when I was a kid, everytime I get injured, hurt, illness... You were the first person to worry of me, take care of me, and gave the best to me.

I really miss the moment you cycled me with the old minibike to kindergarten, and to everywhere. Now you can't cycle anymore because of your legs problem, my heart is really hurt that you can't walk much now due to you overloaded work during you were young. Why you must suffer this kind of pain? Why not me?

You never really beat me up in my life, only once which I really did a very stupid mistake, I really regret with that mistake. You only scolded me, advice me... I'm very sorry I yelling back on you when you did it to me when I was a kid. When the time I growing up, I only knew it was only for my good.

Your cook always the best to me, I couldn't find any cook better than you. I remember everytime my birthday, you will cook my favorite fried chicken and boiled red eggs to me, as my birthday special meal. We don't celebrate birthday in such party style but with that only fried chicken, I'm really happy with it.

Now I'm far apart with you, everytime when I went back to visit you, I can see how happy you were, but when the moment I went back to KL, I can see how sad you were. I know you miss me, in fact I really miss you too! You told me not to come back for my career because you want me to develop my career in this big city. I really want to bring you and dad along to this big city and stay together, but you both wanted a peaceful life there and also still need to take care of my brothers.

I promise, I'll do my best to give you a better life. I know no matter how much I pay back, I still can't pay back whatever you've sacrificed to me. Your sacrifices are the most valuable and priceless to me, I'll never forget all of it and will always appreciate it. I couldn't ask for more from you anymore.

Do you know everytime when I had nightmare something bad happened to you, I woke up straight and cried for the whole night. I really don't want anything bad happen to you. Everytime I pray to god, the first place I always asked god to keep you safe and healthy all the time. Damn... I'm crying now... My first time cried when writing blog.

You are the only person I can trust and you are the only person know me well from toe to head. You are the only person I talk to most of the time, we jokes, we exchange ideas, we share secrets, and we gossips too.

Mom, I just want to say that no one can replace you, you are the most beautiful woman I ever met in my life. You are my one and only Mom in my life.

Our family never say 'I Love You' to each other before, we just did by actions. This time I want to break the tradition, I want to shout to the world that...


I LOVE YOU MOM!!!

Happy Mother's Day To All Mothers...