Ok, this time is serious, no jokes no rocks no crap. I got something to confess here about myself...
Living in a city really is not that easy, I've been living in this major city about 4 1/2 years and I still can't use to it. The reason why I came to KL is because of my career and education. I was working with a civil and structural consultant company about 2 years in my hometown Butterworth and being treated like a cow instead I was a Clerk Of Work (COW). Everyday have to work till late night, sometimes have to work for 24 hours non-stop and the worst was 36 hours non-stop! I have to cover more than 10 construction sites in the same time and all were located far away. Half of my salary just contributed for my petrol... sigh!
Then I started my part time bachelor degree in Civil Engineering with UTM (SPACE), because of tight schedule of work so I applied for government job and finally I got it, so I'm posted to KL and I have to come all the way alone, I don't have any relatives or friends in KL that time. Then I transfered my study from Penang to KL UTM Campus. I was so frus with the system, when I transfered during short semester, they failed all my subjects with the reason I never sit for the exam! When the results came out I was attending government course outstation for almost a month. When I came back the application to appeal the result already closed, KNN!!! Really wasted my money and time to re-take all the subjects.
Last year, I left only a general paper to complete my study, but I was in the wrong timing, the subject only offered once in a year that mean I have to wait another year. I wrote so many letters to appeal them to offer it in normal semester, but they gave me a reason not enaugh student so have to cancel it... MCB!!! So I wasted a year for waiting a paper which is only Islamic studies and not related with my field. This year... finally I manage to finish it all and I was so happy after 4 1/2 years struggling with it, but nothing come smooth again... really TiuNiaSeng, they said my convocation have to postpone to next year because of my result came out so late! What the hell... why only me? All my classmates already graduated last year and I still have to spend another year somemore?!! I really damn 9 Tulan with it... I'd spent so much my own money and time on it, but why only me got such luck?
Now I'm in dilemma, I already completed my bachelor degree, I also applied for engineer post in govt and now I'm waiting for the interview for the new intake. At the same time got few companies asking me to join them, but I think still not the right time. Now I'm in the low-rank govt servant, and my current salary is not enaugh to cover my daily expenses, if I leave govt job I may get at least double than my current salary. So I give myself another years to wait my engineer post in govt, if not I'll leave and join private sectors. What do you think? Can give me some ideas?
That's why I was so down and bad mood in past few weeks about all of the above matters plus with my relationship another failure and I don't feel want to talk about it here.
That's all my confession... I feel better now, thanks for reading and comments.